I’m back, though I never left.

Hello everyone. It’s been over a year since I last updated, and in that time, a lot has happened; none of it all that good. I’m not going to wax poetic about the riots, Covid, or the presidential elections. I will, however, choose not to put on a happy go lucky face, like many creators do, and pretend like nothing bad is happening. I considered it. I considered it for a long while. But, in the end, one of the reasons I haven’t updated for so long, is because doing so, in such a way, would have been dishonest, and I can’t stand dishonesty. Again, that doesn’t mean I will talk about it all that much, or that this page is going to become just another political pundit podium. It does mean, however, that I must say this before continuing.

Those of you who voted for Joe Biden will get what you voted for, and whether or not you like what that ends up being, I don’t care.

I have watched the country I loved burned, spit upon, and invaded. I have watched the hatred stirred up by both sides, and the shouting of the ignorant for change they don’t understand. On the internet, everyone’s an expert, so I’m not going to tell you what should be done, what should have happened, or why this is good, and this is bad. If you want to know my opinions on those things, you’ll have to read my books. I guarantee no matter which side of the spectrum you may be on, you’re in for a surprise.

This place is for updates on smaller, happier things. Things about release dates, stories I’m working on, other authors, painting projects, and the occasional discussion about tabletop and video gaming. Those are the opinions I want to put here, and I will do my level best to keep it that way.

So, why now? Why, after over a year of silence have I come back to an audience of practically no one? Am I going to promise more updates? Do I have something special planned? Is book two of “The Last Chronical of Azurden” finally finished? No. I’m not doing any of that this time. I am writing this because I want to. I am writing this because I finally wanted to make a post after over a year of silence. If I make a post tomorrow, or next week, or next month, it will also be because I wanted to. This is how it has to be, because I can’t force myself to be social. I have tried. I have tried numerous times. But I am so anti-social it almost physically hurts to forcefully open myself up to the world. Some might call this laziness, others might call it cowardice, but no matter what you call it, it is just me. It is who I am, and I doubt I am going to change.

Finally, anyone out there who’s interested in the adventures of Renard the fox in book two of “The Last Chronicle of Azurden”, rest assured it is still being worked on. Yes, I realize it’s been four years since book one came out, and that anyone should be able to write a book in four years. In truth, I have written three books, all of which is scrapped material from book two, because it just didn’t work. I understand that, sometimes, you “just have to mark it done, and move on”, that “nothing is going to be perfect,” and that, “having three mediocre books out is better than not having any,” and in every case, you would be right. I can’t stand up and claim, “but my books are different!”, “My books are special!”, because they aren’t. They are the tale of a human turned into a walking fox through dark magic, and though not the most popular of topics, I’m certain someone out there knows of at least ten more stories with a reasonably similar plot. There is nothing new under the sun, as they say. But, despite knowing these things, and despite the shame of it taking so long, there is a cardinal truth I cannot ignore about my writing. Whatever I choose to release, I have to be happy with, even if it’s a rush job, and if I’m not happy with it, then I don’t want my name on it. I know a lot of people won’t understand that. Even author’s have to eat. But, every bit of my writing reflects on me in some way, it contains a part of who I am, and where I’ve been in this journey called life. Yes, even this post. If at any time I don’t feel that to be the case, then I wind up scrapping the part I don’t like, or even the whole thing, and starting again, if at all. Some will call this stupid, a waste of time, and even torture, and I would agree, but, it is still who I am, and who I have always been, and it is the only person that can write the books, and the stories that I do. All I can say then in regards to it’s release, is to please, be patient. It will be done when it is done.

I will beg for you to buy my books on other sites. If you’re interested, I already have a page dedicated to them. Here, I just want to be myself.

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